Title: Boat of Devotion
Disclaimer: I don't own any Psi Factor characters.
Peter Axon was burnt out. There was nothing else
to call it. They had just come off of a very strenuous case. It had
involved a teenaged boy with PK abilities who was very troubled. He had
ended up taking his own life at the end. Peter had blamed himself.
Peter began to think about his own life. What
life, he thought. Did anybody even care if he lived or died?
So, on that day after the case was wrapped up,
Peter made the mammoth decision to take a few days off.
"So, where are you going?" Matt
asked. Peter looked suspicious. Matt and Peter were not exactly the
best of friends.
"I'm just going to do a little fishing up at Lewis
"Oh." Matt said.
As Peter readied himself for his trip, he had
promised himself that he would not think about OSIR for the next four days.
Pam Curtis and her son Danny were driving to Lake Lewis.
Pam was nervous. She kept looking in her rear view mirror to see if
she were being followed. Thank God she wasn't. Danny was talking
"Hey Mommie, why is the sun and the moon out
at the same time?" She was barely listening and just said, "Uh
- huh in answer to his questions. This always tended to make Danny angry.
"She never listens to me." He thought to
himself. I wish Daddy were still alive. Mommie always seemed to be
As they pulled up in front of the cabin, Pam
looked around nervously before she alighted from the vehicle.
"Come on Danny. Get your things
quickly." She didn't know what difference it made, but she
wanted to get inside as quickly as possible.
As they settled in, Pam looked around. The
cabin had belonged to Ed's parents and they had spent many happy times here.
It was a very comfortable cabin and was always well stocked except for
perishables. Knowing this, Pam had stopped at the tiny supermarket
in Beanblossom Falls.
"Here, Danny. Danny, help me put away the
groceries." Danny had been zooming around like an airplane. In
fact, Pam had to stop him and hold his face to get him to listen.
"Okay, Mom." The good-natured kid
Danny could sense his mom's uneasiness, but he
didn't know what it was about.
He knew that it had something to do with him.
"Mommie, why are you so sad?"
It was Danny's turn to take his Mommie's face in his
hands. He knew that it had something to do with listening and he wanted
mommy to listen.
Pam's eyes filled with tears as she looked into Danny's
sweet, innocent eyes and lied.
"Everything's alright, sweetie.
Mommie's just tired. Now, you help Mommie put away the
groceries and then you can play with your super heroes."
The little boy obediently went to the kitchen and
started putting things away.
The morning dawned clear and crisp as Peter prepared to
go out in the boat for some early morning fishing.
The lake was as still and bright as glass. The
sound of the water birds calling to one another reached Peter's ears and
gave him a peace that he hadn't known for a long time.
He knew that it was silly for him to blame himself,
but he couldn't help it. The boy was relying on Peter to help him.
He had a responsibility to help the boy. It was true that Peter had
no idea that they boy was suicidal, but he should have known that
something was wrong.
Suddenly, Peter saw movement on the shore. He
shaded his eyes and squinted. He could barely make out the form of a small
Peter made his way back to shore.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" Peter
asked. The boy was just sitting there, but as Peter got closer,
he could see that the boy was playing with super heroes.
"Where are your parents?" Peter could
see now that the boy was crying.
"I'm lost. I came out here to play
super heroes and I got lost." He was whispering.
"Well, come on, let's go and find your
parents." The little boy put his small hand into Peter's and Peter
felt as if he had been redeemed.
As they walked through the woods, Danny chatted
about various things. Danny didn't really care if anybody was
listening to him or not. Pete felt a sense of peace as he walked with
Danny through the woods.
As they came to a clearing, Pete could see the groups of
cabins. His eyes fell on the woman running frantically in their direction.
"Danny!" Her hair was flying in the wind
as she came to them.
"What are you doing with my son?" Peter
"I didn't take him. I was bringing him
back!" she was barely listening as she held Danny in her arms. After
she was sure that he was safe, she looked up at the man that brought Danny
"I'm sorry. I was just so scared. I
woke up and he was gone. Danny, you scared Mommie half to
death." The little boy got a thoughtful look on his face and said,
"Mommie, how can you be half dead?" They all laughed as she
hugged him close.
"I'm sorry Mommie. I just wanted to
talk to the morning." Peter looked at him strangely, but his
mother was used to such statements.
"Well, uh, thank you again.' She
said to Peter.
"Wait, what's your name?" The
woman turned around and flashed a beautiful smile.
"My name is Pam and this is Danny. Nice to
meet you." They shook hands.
"My name is Peter Axon." Peter watched
as they retreated into the cabin. Something was wrong, but he just
couldn't put his finger on what it was. Peter thought, a lot of
parents would have been frantic to have their child missing. But, Pam
was a little more frantic than most parents would be.
He made a mental note to keep an eye on them just in
When Pam and Danny got inside, Pam scolded Danny.
"Danny, you must never leave the cabin
without Mommie. I was very worried." Danny hugged Pam and it
was very hard for her to be angry when he did this. She had fixed his
breakfast and it was waiting for him now.
"Be a good boy and eat your breakfast, Danny."
As Danny ate, Pam thought about Peter Axon. He was a very
attractive man. She blushed when she thought about him. She couldn't
let herself think about him, though. After all, she didn't
even know who he was. He could be working for the people that want Danny
and maybe she caught him before he could walk off with Danny. Pam had to
be very careful.
When Pete awoke the next morning, he looked over
towards Pam's cabin. He wondered if they were awake yet and what excuse he
could use to go over there. He gave up the idea and headed toward the
lake. He didn't get far before he heard screaming.
Pete ran back towards Pam's cabin. He didn't know
what he would find when he got there. When he opened the door, he
saw Pam trying to protect Danny from some strange man.
Before Pete could do anything, something
astonishing happened. The man that was threatening Danny suddenly burst
"Danny, no!" But before anyone
could move, the assailant had burned to a crisp.
"Case manager Peter Axon reporting. Subject
seemed to be a victim of spontaneous combustion or PK abilities using fire.
Further investigation warranted. Axon out."
Pete immediately called the OSIR team over Pam's strong
"He's just a little boy." Pam was
crying. Peter came over to comfort her.
"We won't hurt him. He's with Lindsay now.
She'll take good care of him." For a split second, Pete
realized how good Pam felt in his arms. He pulled her closer, but
the moment was spoiled when Matt walked in.
"Uh - excuse me. Pete, have you interviewed
Ms. - uh - "
"Curtis. Pam Curtis."
"No, I haven't interviewed her yet."
Pete was a little upset that matt seemed to be checking up on him. After
all, he was case manager for this one.
"Oh, well, Ms. Curtis, please tell us what
Peter guided Pam over to the couch to sit down.
"Danny has always been a bit different. He
has Asperger's Syndrome." When both Peter and Matt's eyebrows went
up, Pam went on to explain.
"It's a form of Autism. It's a very high
functioning form of Autism.
The fire thing all started a couple of years ago. Danny, could
start fires just by thinking it. My husband, Ray Curtis, got
mixed up with some people that wanted to use Danny's powers. These people
killed my husband and are after my son." When she mentioned a
husband, Peter looked dejected but he perked up after she said that her
husband was dead.
"Why don't we bring Anton in to test Danny?"
Even though Peter was trying to be independent, he was still trying
to receive approval from Matt.
"That's a good idea, Pete, but I worry
about how accurate the testing is going to be due to the autism.
"Maybe I can help. Since we found that Danny
has Asperger's I was trained in Special Education so that I can be sure that
everything is being done for him.
Matt and Peter exchanged glances.
"Okay, Pam, we'll let you help Anton
with the testing."
She smiled at Pete and mouthed a silent thank you.
Anton worked with Danny and Pam as Danny showed them
what he could do. When he concentrated really hard, he could light a
match from across the room.
When the testing was done, Lindsay came by and
asked if Danny wanted to go and get ice cream. He readily agreed.
"Uh - Pam I was wondering if
you'd like to go for a picnic by the lake." Pam was surprised. She
knew that he was only doing it to try to keep her mind off of what was going on.
"I'd love to."
They picked up what they needed at the
little supermarket and headed for the lake. Pam was still a little edgy
about leaving Danny, but Peter assured her that Danny was in good
They soon relaxed together and began to talk about
normal things. Peter talked of his job with the OSIR and she talked about
her life as a Special Education teacher before the whole thing with the fire
Peter liked how the breeze rifled through her hair.
In fact, there were many things about her that he liked. she
had a quiet way about her and they found that they instinctively knew things
about each other without saying it.
After a wonderful lunch of the things that they found in
the little supermarket - things like pop tarts, Vienna sausages, and
string cheese. It sounded gross, but it was fun. They strolled
along the beach. It seemed natural for them to hold hands. Peter had
not felt this way in a long time. He was happy.
"So, tell me something. Do you really
believe in things that go bump in the night?" Pete smiled. He
had been teased about his profession several times.
"I'm sorry, I just keep picturing Ghostbusters and
the giant Sta-puf marshmallow man." They had a good laugh and then
Pete got serious.
"I used to be a 'just the facts ma'am' kinda guy.
But, I've seen things. . ." Pam could see that some of
the things that he had seen were very horrible. She instinctively put her
hand on his shoulder. Peter stopped walking and turned in toward Pam.
They both knew that this moment would come as they stared deeply into each
other's eyes. Pete took her face in his hands and kissed her lightly
- at first. After a moment, Pete deepened the kiss.
Pam tried to access how she was feeling. She knew
that she shouldn't be thinking while locked in a scrumptious kiss with a
handsome man, but she did anyway. Her past boyfriends had been
nothing, but mediocre. Danny's father was a gem. Not
particularly sexy, like Peter, but he was true blue. In a
sense, she felt as if she were betraying Ray's memory. But, on
the other hand, she knew that Ray would approve of Peter Axon.
She gave into the kiss and let her hands roam over his
back pulling him closer.
Before they both realized it, the sky had broken
open and a gentle rain was falling. They broke apart laughing as they
scurried back to their picnic spot. They quickly packed their things as
the rain began to fall more heavily.
"There's an old fishing shack near here. We
can wait out the storm there." They ran to the shack laughing
as they came through the door. The shack was pretty bare. There was
a fireplace, which, was good, as well as a functional kitchen
and table and chairs.
The rain had now become a downpour and the wind was
whipping as well.
"I'll get the fire going." Luckily,
the owner of the shack had collected dry firewood and there were dry
matches as well.
While Peter made the fire, Pam busied herself by
finding some candles and blankets.
They ended up toasting pop tarts over the fire. A
few minutes later, Peter and Pam were snuggled under a blanket in front of
a roaring fire. They had kissed a little and Peter was reminded of his
high school days.
"So, Peter. Let me guess. You've never
been married?" Peter smiled.
"Does it show? What's the matter, do my
socks not match or something?"
It did show, but not in the way he thought. She
knew he wasn't a virgin, but he didn't look like he had many
relationships. Maybe it was his sort of naive quality that she liked.
"I am a little nervous you know. You're the
first man I've 'seen' since Ray died. Don't worry I'm not still hung up on
him. I mean, I still love him, but he would want me to move on and
make a life for myself and Danny."
Peter played with her hair. It was as if she were
trying to convince herself.
"How do you think Danny will react to 'us'. "
He was now twining his fingers with hers. She took a deep breath because
this was a very intimate gesture.
"It's okay. Danny likes you. Oh, no!
I forgot about Danny." She jumped up.
"It's okay. Danny's with Lindsay.
I can call if you want me to." She didn't answer, but the
look on her face said it all. Pete picked up the cell phone and called
Lindsay. Peter explained that they were stuck in a downpour and made sure
that Danny was alright. Before Lindsay hung up, she said, "Have
The next morning, they had more toasted pop tarts.
Pam was surprised that Peter didn't try something during the night. It
wasn't because he didn't want to. But, somehow he felt as if it
wasn't the right time. He spent the better part of the night just holding
her. It felt good and right to hold her.
They arrived at the OSIR mobile unit the next morning to
see Danny eating a huge breakfast of hotcakes and sausage and a big glass of
milk. When Pam walked in, he had on a milk mustached as well as a
huge smile. He was happy.
"You didn't even miss Mommie, did you?"
She said jokingly.
"Yes I did Mommie, I love you." Dear
sweet Danny, always so literal. Peter went to see Anton to see what
the test results were.
"We have finished our testing.
His abilities are amazing." Anton was saying. Pam was
sitting on the edge of her chair listening intently while Peter sat next to her.
"What effect does the Autism have on those
abilities?" Peter asked.
"Well, I did have some trouble getting him to
understand what I needed him to do. I can see where this would be a
hindrance to whoever was trying to use him. On the other hand, the
fact that he doesn't understand the concept of death would be helpful to
Anton looked at Pam to see if this coincided with what she believed.
"Well, I think that it's true that Danny
doesn't understand the concept of death. He still thinks that Ray is just
away on a trip no matter how I tried to explain it." Pete put a hand on her
shoulder to let her know that he was there. This gesture did not go
unnoticed by Anton. Pam left to go and see to Danny. Anton took this
opportunity to talk to Peter.
"Peter, I'm concerned." Peter
"Is she alright? What do you think is wrong?
Is it Danny?" Anton's fears were proven.
"No Peter, it's you. I think that you
are getting too involved in this case. Are you and Pam - uh,
together?" Peter could see now where Anton was going with this.
"Anton, I don't think that its any of your
business." An obvious reaction, thought Anton.
"I know that it's none of my business. As
I said, I'm just concerned that you might not be objective when we have to
make certain decisions." Now Peter was confused.
"What do you mean, certain decisions. What
decisions are you referring to."
Anton didn't want to tell Peter about news that he had
heard from Elsinger.
"We might have to give up custody of the
boy." He braced himself for the explosion that he knew was to come.
"What are you talking about? He's
in his mother's custody." Anton lowered his head and continued.
"They are trying to prove that she is incompetent
because she is ignoring his condition. They say that they want to take him
somewhere where he can be treated properly." Peter gave Anton another
angry look before bolted off to find Pam.
When Peter came into the observation room, he was
struck by two sights. One was Danny, who couldn't possibly
understand what was happening to him, being ripped away from his mother.
And then, his eyes moved to Pam who was crying hysterically and
holding on for dear life. Matt and Lindsay were there as well, but
all that they could do was stand there and watch.
Finally, Pam could hold on no longer and they took
Danny away kicking and screaming. Peter immediately went to her side.
"Get away from me. You helped them. You
helped them take my son away. I don't ever want to see you again."
With that, Pam got up and left. Peter remained there on the
floor not knowing what to do next. He didn't know where Pam was
going, so there was no way to follow her. There was only one thing
"Peter, are you alright?" Lindsay asked.
They had been worried about Peter ever since they realized that he was
involved with Pam. They knew that with Elsinger involved, that the
situation could turn out this way. Peter was too involved with Pam to see
that. If he had, maybe he could have warned Pam.
It was not clear if Peter was ignoring Lindsay's question, or
if he even heard her at all. Matt moved over to try to smooth things with
"Peter, you gotta let this thing go. It's
out of our hands now." Peter looked hard at Matt and said, "If
it were someone that you loved that they had, would you give up?"
The question remained hanging in the air. Everyone knew that Matt
would never leave it alone.
"What do you need for us to do?" Matt
asked. Peter smiled and patted Matt on the back.
"I've got to find Pam first. Can you guys
find out where they took Danny?" Matt and Lindsay nodded and they
each went off in different directions.
Peter went to the computer and looked up Pam's last
known address. maybe, he thought, she will go back there. The
database showed that the address was right there in town. Peter left
Pam, in the meantime, was in a terrible state of
depression. They had taken her son which was the only thing she had left.
She didn't know where they had taken him and so, she was not able to
follow. She kept thinking that they might just eliminate him because he
might prove too difficult to work with. She sat in the dark house as the
rain poured outside. She thought about Peter. She couldn't help but
think that he was part of the group that took her son from her. He
pretended to like me in order to get close to me, she thought. She
wiped away the tears that were falling simultaneously with the rain. She
chided herself for the feelings that she still had for Peter.
As Peter pulled up to the small bungalow, he noted
that there were no lights on anywhere in the house. As he moved to
the front door, he thought about what he would say to her. What
could he say to her? He blamed himself for what happened to Danny even
though he knew that he hadn't done anything. She would see him as part of
the organization that ha given Danny over, and it really hurt him. He
rang the bell. he listened as the sound echoed through the seemingly empty
house. He pushed the bell again and listened again. This time,
he vaguely heard footsteps getting louder as they came to the door. The
door slowly opened, and there she was. He could tell that she had
been crying. He instinctively put his hand up to wipe away her tear.
This gesture brought with it a fresh round of tears. He took her
into his arms and held her. She let him hold her. She hadn't wanted
to, but there was only one explanation, she was in love with him.
She invited him inside, offered him some tea and
turned on the lights.
"Believe me Pam, I didn't know that the OSIR
was planning on turning over Danny to those people. If I had, I would have
never brought him there." She believed him. She had to, there
was no one left but Peter. She had to trust someone.
"What do we do now?" She asked
"Matt and Lindsay are trying to find out where they
took Danny and then we're going to try to get him back." She looked
into his eyes.
"There's a possibility that you three could
lose your jobs."
She looked at Peter and could tell that losing his
job was the least of his worries.
"We're going to get Danny back. I
promise." She kissed him and he returned the kiss with fervor.
In the meantime, Matt and Lindsay had made
some discoveries of their own. Lindsay had hacked into some very sensitive
files and discovered that Elsinger was involved with the people that have Danny.
"Do we have a location yet?" Matt
wanted to know. Lindsay's fingers were flying over the keyboard.
"I'm working on it." She continue
working and then. . .
"Uh - oh, they know I'm in. They're
tracing it back to me. I have to get out." She got out before
they could trace it back.
"Well, how much did you get?" Matt
was anxious to know.
"They didn't find out who I was, but I did find out
where they're keeping Danny. It's at a small private hospital. The
only problem is that they'll be expecting us."
Peter brought Pam into the OSIR office the
next day to see what Matt and Lindsay had discovered. His mind flickered
back to the night before where he reminisced about the first time he and Pam had
made love. He knew that it was done out of desperation and that it
probably was not the best timing, but he needed her and she needed him.
"What have we got?" He asked as he
came through the doors. Lindsay handed him a piece of paper with the name
of the private hospital written on it.
"They'll be expecting us though." Peter
"Let's just hope that he's still there."
When they arrived at the hospital, Peter and
Pam stayed out of sight. They figured that they would know who Pam was and
maybe even Peter. Who knows, Elsinger might even have given the
description of the whole team to them.
Lindsay had found a nurse's uniform and made her way to
the nurse's station. She tried to look as inconspicuous as possible.
She was looking for the room number and scanned the charts that were
there. One of them where they had listed the age of the patient had caught
her eye. They were not dumb enough to use his real name. She quickly
scanned the rest of the information and decided that she had found him. she
left the nurse's station, she went to a supply closet and pulled out her
communication device and contacted Matt.
"I found a patient in room 213 that they have
listed as being eight years old. He's the only one that seems close."
Matt acknowledged this information. Now it was his turn to come in. Peter
stood by in case he needed help and Lindsay was coming out.
Matt came into the building dressed as a doctor. He
made his way nonchalantly through the halls acting as if he knew people and
saying, hello. When he reached room 213, he looked around to see if
anyone was watching. He also looked for cameras, but knew that just
because he didn't see a camera, there still could be one there. He
quickly slipped inside the room. There was Danny. They had sedated
him probably out of the fear that he might start a fire. There was a quiet
knock at the door which Matt recognized as Peter. Matt let him in with the
They quickly placed the boy on the gurney and placed a
mask over his face. Peter was dressed as an orderly and he and Matt walked
slowly out of the room. Matt saw some of the same people that he had said
hello to earlier and this time they recognized him from before and said a
cheerful hello back to him. What he was banking upon was that the normal
employees at this hospital did not know who the little boy was and thought that
he was just another patient.
They made it all the way to the front waiting area
before one of the doctors stopped them.
"Excuse me doctor, where are you taking that
patient?" Matt and Peter exchanged glances and both made a break for
the door. Just as they had planned, Lindsay had pulled the van up to
the front door and all Matt and Pete had to do was load Danny into the van.
They had accomplished all of this before the doctor had alerted security.
By the time security came, they were speeding away.
Pam had already packed her and Danny's things and loaded
them into a vehicle that was waiting at another location. Pam carefully
placed Danny in the backseat of the waiting car. Then, came the time that
Peter regretted more than anything. Matt and Lindsay waited for Peter in
They both knew that Pam and Danny had to get away and
that it wasn't safe for them to be together right now. But, even though
they both knew this, it was tearing them apart.
He took her into his arms and held her before breaking
away and kissing her deeply on the lips.
"I love you." He whispered softly into
her hair. His words sent a chill through her. And she squeezed him
"I love you, too. Will I ever see you again?"
Peter knew that when Elsinger found out that he would be hopping mad.
He wouldn't be able to protest too much or it would incriminate him.
He also knew that they would be watching him like a hawk for some time
hoping that he would lead them to her. He stroked her cheek with his hand.
"Maybe someday." She had said that
she and Danny would travel around and perhaps send a postcard only when they
were leaving a location so that he would never know where they were - only where
they had been.
He kissed her again. This time even more deeply
when he realized that it would be the last kiss. She was crying now
and even Peter had a tear or two in his eyes. Pam slipped into the car and
Peter walked slowly back to the van.
Peter decided to go back up to Lewis Lake to finish out
his vacation. As he sat in the he boat in the middle of the lake, he
thought about the love of his life. He wondered if he would ever see Pam
again and if they would ever have a life together. He looked out to the
shore and half expected to see Danny sitting there as he did on that fateful day
by Chris Eaton and Marty Magahee)
Mountains high on a crimson tide
Reflecting down on the water side
All alone my lord and I
In my boat of devotion
All these hills have a tale to tell
Of the restless heart we are know so well
Join with me for I am setting sail
In my boat of devotion
Boat of devotion
Find me my peace
From the waves of emotion unsettling me
Row me away and set my soul free
In my boat of devotion
Wash me with your righteousness
Like a mountain stream in the wilderness
There I'll drown in your tenderness
In my boat of devotion
Boat of devotion find me my peace
From the waves of emotion unsettling me
Row me away and set my soul free
In my boat of devotion
Pure is the sun refreshing the rain
When I feel the hand of forgiveness
Great is the hope this sinner has gained
Now heaven is one breath away
Heaven's just one breath away
Row me away and set my soul free
In my boat of devotion